Sunday, June 16, 2019
Get your favorite beverage and snacks! This is gonna be long!
When I stopped blogging a few months ago, it was because I lost sight. Sight of why I began blogging. Sight of why I needed to blog. Sight of the real me and my real life.
I fell prey to that evil inner blogger who tricked me into thinking that me and my blog must not be any good and just down right boring, because I didn't have hundreds of followers and only one or two regular readers. I mean, how bad does it have to be before your family stops reading it? Just kidding! They never read it to begin with!
So, I started thinking that I needed a gimmick... you know, something that will bring in the masses? Yeah, yeah, it probably would have helped if I had posted more than once in forever! And, yeah, I know our life is down right boring and I couldn't even manufacture the fun, active, exciting, life...not even in my head...that I thought would be worthy of a blog post. Y'all!!! You know it's bad when you can't even make up a lie...I mean... WELL, you know...we all know some of those bloggers, don't we! Oh, come on, Y'all! Don't judge! I know you can point out the blogs over there on your sidebar, that left you sitting there - staring at your screen, shaking your head, and mumbling, "Girl, you know that's a lie! Ain't nobody in the world live like that!". Anyhow...
Back to thinking I needed a gimmick.. I couldn't imagine what kind of gimmick, but I NEEDED A GIMMICK, for Pete's sake!
I was jealous of those blogs that have 1000's of followers and regular readers!
So while I was away, I focused on my home, my family, and my drumming. I enjoyed my grandbabies and learned a bit of Native American beading. This blog popped into my head one day and I realized what had happened. Then I began to remember and analyze some facts about why I start blogging way back in 2012, I believe. Because that's what I do. Analyze and then analyze that analyz-ation(I just made that up), and so on.
Facts are... I didn't stat blogging for self gratification, showing off, or to have 1000s of followers. I didn't care if I had a follower or not. As much as I love seeing new readers and new followers...there is a difference, you know. Between readers and followers, I mean. As much as I like seeing those two regular readers leaving a comment or the ones who come and go without leaving a comment...I didn't start blogging for socializing. As much as I love every single one of you, I just didn't do it for you. You, dear hearts, are a BONUS!
The reason I starting blogging was for pure personal reasons. I started blogging for me. I used to keep a handwritten journal but with the computer, I stated typing. I have Carpel Tunnel Syndrome and sometimes holding a pen, my hand goes numb and that leads to all kinds of messes! 😜 It felt good to get my thoughts out of my head, again! I also liked to scrapbook but for the same reason, I didn't do much of that either. So it seemed starting a blog was the answer to both the journal and scrapbooking. I started blogging as therapy. I went through an, exceptionally bad, case of depression. I've never told that TRUTH to y'all. Well, no that isn't right because I'm sure y'all know about that but I'm pretty sure I've never spoken about just how bad it was. I think I would like to share that with y'all. Maybe somebody needs to hear it. Maybe, my story will give hope and power for the times where there isn't any. Just maybe, my story will be the seed that blooms into the beautiful and eternal SALVATION!
I got off track again, but what I'm trying to say if this...I need to blog. No matter how many times I think I have nothing to say...fact is...maybe somebody just needs to see a pretty picture, or a silly meme, or even an uninteresting, mundane, uncool blog post that shows them that their life is not so bad...it could be boring as me and my life! Even if I never got a follower, never had a reader...that was ok. I is still ok because I am blogging for me and for those precious grandbabies of mine, because maybe, one day, they will want to read about their quirky, silly, and sometimes overly serious, Grandma! Maybe... They BETTER!
Grace & Peace,