Friday, April 26, 2013

This morning, I missed my Mama so bad.  Haven't had a day like this for quite some time.  One of those days where, BAM!!!, it hits you that someone you love isn't around anymore and won't be ever again.  I was having a pretty good pity party and it occurred to me, that what I was really missing was Mama's physical presence.

As I went about my day.  As I swept the floors.  As I did a bit of sewing.  As I drank coffee and had my breakfast.  As I cooked our dinner and had to stand on tippy-toes to reach the bowl on the very top shelf.  As I watched Dr. Phil and the six o'clock news.  As I read my Bible.  And when I brushed my wild, curly, hair.  Fed the dogs and retrieved the mail, I noticed something.  All of these things reminded me of Mama.  Busy hands, curious mind, short legs, crazy hair and all.  Everything I am, everything I do, everything I will ever be, is a direct reflection of my beautiful Mama.  I am who I am because of God and Mama.  

I do miss her so but God gently reminded me that she is never far.  I simply need to look within.
I woke up, this morning, a little bummed out.  My daughter, grand-daughter, and I, were supposed to have left, this morning, for our trip back home to Texas.  I developed a sinus thing, several weeks ago, and have felt lousy all week.  I know I have fluid in my ears again, which jacks with my equilibrium, and I've had a headache that could rival any high school drumline.  I didn't feel I could, safely, make that long drive, so I canceled it.  Besides the sinus issue, I just never really felt "right" about this trip.  I don't know why but I have a feeling it was confirmation, for me, that I have grown in my person and in my surroundings.  I no longer feel homesick for my native Texas.  I no longer prescribe to a certain thought process that I possessed when I lived there.  I am a different person, altogether.  Don't get me wrong.  Texas will always be dear to me and I will always proudly say, I am a native Texan, but something has changed for me and I believe it is a very good change.  So, while I would love to visit my family there, I can see the goodness, of not making this trip, at this time.

Saturday, April 20, 2013

We have these little guys flying, around our place, all the time.  It is a House Finch and apparently they love to build nests in wreaths.  I noticed there was a lot of activity around my front door so I went around to see what was going on.  I love birds and my first thought was that the starlings had returned.  They may have but they aren't who has been so busy.  

I found this tiny nest on the back of the wreath hanging on the front door.  I quietly move a bit closer to see if there were any eggs in the nest.

Nope, not yet.  I will continue to check the nest.  My love for birds stems from the scripture Matthew 6:26, which says,  

"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?".  

My love for birds made me "threaten" my Mister if he touched that nest.  I won't even allow the front door to be opened if someone knocks on it.  They will have to come around to the back door!

Friday, April 19, 2013

I remember this day, like it was yesterday. It was the day God put my shattered heart back together and I got my heartbeat back. Happy birthday to my heartbeat, my precious grandblessing. It sure doesn't seem like three years have passed. I love you more than my own life... And, Lord...Thank you for bringing her, for me, at a time when I needed her the most.

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Apparently, we have reverted back to winter.  Yesterday was a cold, rainy, miserable day.  The day before that, I had to turn on the A/C because it was very warm and humid.  I don't like all this back and forth stuff.  Being OCD, I want the seasons to be as they should be.  Of course, after planting 12 new rose bushes, 3 peonies and my lilac bush (if you can call it a bush) finally started putting on leaves, we had a freeze warning for last night and tonight.  I had go out in the rainy cold, to find things to cover all those plants.  Since we aren't growing a vegetable garden this year, we had thrown away buckets that we normally used so I gathered what I could find.  Flower pots, storage containers, and even the portable fire pit, are working just fine.  Since it isn't going to get too warm today, I think I will just leave them until tomorrow.

I always (sort of) look forward to Spring kittens but there will be no more.  I took Mama Boo and Melvin, to get fixed yesterday.  Kind of sad in a way but a necessity.  We don't need more cats!  I try not to get attached to the kittens but I do, in one way or another, no matter how hard I try.  It is very difficult for me to give them away because I worry whether they will be taken care of like I do, will they have a loving home or will they end up a stray?  I don't need that.  I have enough to think about!

*update on the "DUNGEON".  The drywall is up!  Waiting on mud and taping, this weekend and then paint.  I am so ready for this room to be something more than a place where we throw junk.  I am keeping my sewing machines in there but otherwise the junk will be stored. I haven't decided if I want to put a twin bed or a futon, in there.  Not that we need either because we never have overnight guests.  I don't know.  All I do know is I am excited for the dungeon to finally be finished and can be called a ROOM!

Have a blessed day and remember, Jesus love you!

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Spring always brings new life.  There is no exception around our place.  Every Spring, "Mama Boo" blesses us with more little hunters.  She had this last litter, of two, a couple of weeks ago.  Their little nest is actually the nesting box belonging to our turkey we had two or three years ago.  Our grandblessing discovered them today.  She loves baby animals!  She crawled right into the nesting box and started cuddling the babies.  

In the box loving the little kitties

Looking at the little face

So happy to have new babies!